Not rhetorical anymore

I haven't been on Xanga in almost a year! Actually just like 15 days short of a year! WOW.

I'm sure that by now most of you have left xanga and gone on to other things like facebook and myspace and whatnot as I myself did for a time, so I don't expect anyone to read this but I'll put it out there for my own benefit.

My last entry asked where my life was going. I can't completely answer that now, but I can definitely see some fague outlines which is a heck of a lot more than I could see a year ago. A year ago I was very unhappy with the shape things were taking. I was going Kilgore when all of my frineds were going on to bigger schools away from home. I didn't have a plan when all of my frineds "knew" what they wanted to do. I was just a stick in the mud, or so I thought. The first semester of college crept by and was by no means brilliant. It did nothing to brighten my sense of the future or comfort me in any way about my lack of direction. The second semester was different though. I made friends. I got back in touch with God. I picked up a life somewhere in there and became insanely busy. I got a paying job on the school newspaper. I even got a boyfriend for a while. (Maybe not the highlight of the semester, but a definite step up from nothing). Basically life was happening again. I didn't pick up much more direction but the semester did end with the promise of great things in the fall; a roommate, a job as co-executive editor on the paper, and the promise of many more random activities and fun times. Then it was summer. A whirlwind. I don't really remember the beginning of the summer aside from becoming a bit of a recluse. I spent a lot of time alone. It was good though, a break from the insanity of the preceding months. Then I went on a 21 day backpacking trip in the Colorado Rockies and everything changed. I fell in love. I fell in love with the mountains. When my mom came to pick me up after my 21 days in the wilderness something inside me had changed. I was more confident. I had lived with next to nothing and thrived. I had spent nearly a month with a group of complete strangers and by the end would have jumped from a peak for them. I told my mom that I just wanted to live out there, to exist as part of those mountains and they as part of me. But I began preparing myself for East Texas again. I began preparing myself for returning to my communications major at Kilgore and whatever office job that might bring me and I began my farewells to the mountains. We drove home and visited a few colleges on the way down. I picked up information about them and saved it up to look over once I was back home. When I got home though I found something amazing; a bachelor's degree at Fort Lewis College in Adventure Education (basically I could get a degree in backpacking, rock climbing and river rafting). Well I disregarded it in my mind as a silly major that my parents would never in a million years consider a real degree. But when mentioned it they loved it. They said this is the time in your life when you do that. Well I was still sort of considering it at a distance when my dad called one day and said he had looked the school up on line and found that I could go there with my tuition waived! All of these events leading up to this and then this tuition thing just falling in our laps. It's too good to be true so I'm jumping at it. I'm taking a risk and doing something exciting with my life. You only get one so go ahead and LIVE it. I have a direction. I am going to Kilgore for one more year and getting my Associates in Communications then hopefully I will be accepted to Fort Lewis where I will embark upon the journey of a lifetime. I may decide that I don't want to be an adventure guide, but why not give it a try? I can. I am young, and it has practically been handed to me. I would be foolish not to snatch it up and run. God works in amazing ways. 

So now I look to the skies with joy. I look to tomorrow with hope. I think of the future with anticipation and excitement because I know that there are great things in store for me just around the corner.

And that is where my life is going. 

Where is life taking me?

(that's rhetorical question.)

So...i like pinapple.

           Sara

So today was monday...yeah.

Here are some quotes that i find rather amusing...

"You can't leave footprints in the sands of time if you're sitting on your butt. And who wants to leave buttprints in the sands of time?" --anonymous